Two days ago I was going insane. I was on edge, cranky, and generally needing some time to myself. Ah, a page in the old art journal, that will fix things! All will be well. Except all was not well.
I will not go in-depth into the comedy of errors that was this journal page. Lets just say that I wrestled with this page for several hours…paper that did not lay right; paint that did not do what I envisioned it would do; paint drips that looked more like blood than the fun bright pink I was hoping for; fingers that could not seem to complete the most basic of tasks. In fact, I thought, this will be the subject of this page…embracing the unexpected.
Notice the spelling of “unexpected.” I point this out, because the last straw of my struggles with this project came as I stenciled that word INCORRECTLY on to the page. I could go no further with this page. Head in hands I almost ripped it out of the journal and tossed it away. But then that would not really have been sticking to my theme, so I shut the journal and walked away. Not exactly embracing it, but…deciding to let it sit for a day. So, the next day, sense of humor intact, I made my correction with a red pen (flashbacks to school papers and a teacher’s red pen) and photographed my folly to share with the world.
So this was my lesson in embracing the unexpected, and about acceptance, of mistakes, of things that don’t turn out the way we plan, and of my own feelings about things I create, good, bad, or otherwise. I truly do love this journey I am on.